Today, I am Scrooge. I am everything mean and evil and ornery and aggressive. I have a short fuse, a hot temper and an evil eye. Nothing is going right, and I have been at work for 32 minutes.
Everyone that I hear makes my nerves stand on end, and each voice is loud and clear and irritating. I don't know how long I will make it thru a 10 hour shift if the smallest things are annoying me so badly.
I feel that if I were to look above me, I small, black raincloud would be hovering gingerly ready to let out its torrential downpour at any moment. That is, if all the fuming I am doing isn't evaporating the cloud where it floats.
The source of my frustration is multi-fold.
- I am in (good) debt, but would rather not be in any debt.
- I haven't bought anything nice for myself in months because I'm trying to save money.
- We are short on money after the wedding, and cannot seem to make it back fast enough.
- I do not know enough about money or morgages to make an educated opinion when Hubby says that we have 3 options to choose from to fix the house. I inherited the house when I married him; I had no part in actually buying it! I'm lost and need guidance.
- My only girlfriends here want to plan a trip to Europe in a year and a half, and I'm freaking out because I am afraid I won't have the money. It's a year and a half away! Anything could happen!
- I haven't even taken a honeymoon yet! I can't be expected to spend money on something for just me and some girlfriends!
When did I turn into a worrier? This isn't like me. What is going on? I feel so lost for some reason.
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9 hours later I am feeling a lot better thanks to some great friends here at work. And because I did work that I enjoy, surprisingly, but that is a different story.
Crys has been a Godsend in helping keep me sane. I really owe a lot to her. Sometimes I feel like she is trying to make me her project. Oh well! I love it! She really is trying to help out and, I feel, make me a more complete person by getting me involved with crafts and book clubs and fun nights! I love her.
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